I'm not going to lie. I am not in the greatest shape right now. I am an emotional eater, I don't exercise, I eat somewhat healthy, but not really. If you have kids I'm sure you get it. I mean, how bad is macaroni and cheese really? Probably really bad considering its like gooey cheese and butter and cream and noodles-all things you need to stay away from usually when you want to get fit. I say usually because my mind is strategically trying to harness a plan of action that will allow myself cheese and especially melty-gooey cheese and noodles and still be fit while I write this.
I was on a great path a while back. I felt great. I ate right and hiked a lot and spent every morning or night depending, doing a relaxing yoga dvd. I lost fifty pounds and even though I wasn't anywhere near where I wanted to be, I still lost FIFTY POUNDS. That is a lot of pounds to be lost. Have you ever held a pound of ground beef in your hands? HAVE YOU EVER HELD FIFTY?! I was proud and more than that I felt good. Then all of a sudden life got in the way, I stopped paying attention, lost focus, got pregnant again, left my job, and before I knew it I had gained all of it back and maybe a little extra.
I am completely terrified of not only my future, but my present.
At 30 years old I have accomplished a lot of great things, but none are what I had originally set out to do. In fact, none of things I had originally set out to do-and that is okay. I am accepting that not everyone gets a job at Rolling Stone right out of high school, especially when they didn't finish college and never even applied. Things don't happen unless you make them happen and I guess that is why I am starting this blog.
I want you to see my successes and also my failures.
I want you to see them because I want you to know that everyone is human and not everyone is perfect. That you fall a thousand times before you get up just the way you want to. I want you to join me on my journey-wherever it's going to take me-because I'll be honest I have no idea where I'll end up-and I am learning to be okay with that. I want you on this journey because I know so many of you are going through some of the same things I am right now. I want you to see me fall, and then I want you to see me get up. So when you fall, you can dust yourself off and get right back up and stand with me.
Together, we can stand tall and joyous that we are doing the best we can for our children, our husbands and wives and ultimately OURSELVES.
Ever since I was a little girl I struggled with weight issues. I never felt thin or pretty and looking back on photos of myself I realized I was both of those things. I still struggle with body image even at 30 and to be honest I think that is something I'm going to have to struggle with for the rest of my life. But I'm okay with that as long as at the end of the day I am always the best version of myself that I can be. I know right now I am not the best version of myself-and I am not okay with that. This blog will document how I get there.
I don't want my girls to struggle with the same body issues I do. I want to empower them and give them a confidence I don't know how to have. There is no better way than to love them unconditionally-but in order to do that I have to love myself as well. I need to learn how to love who I am. It's important, not just for me, but for all of you as well. If we can fully love ourselves and take care of ourselves, we could do so much more for others.
So if you like mom stuff, crafting, art, music, recipes, health/wellness and photography- I am your one stop blog shop for all of that and more.
Let's make a difference, for ourselves, our family and the world. <3
